Slap in the Face

I don’t deserve this; I don’t deserve this at all. I deserve to be cherished, appreciated, unconditionally loved. Never did a thought that this could happen to me cross my mind. The past used to be filled with adventure, suspense, and wild nights I’ll never forget. I’m so astonished on how quick a person can change after everything that’s happened. I try to do so much for others mentally and physically through little daily things in life. I don’t buy my relationships, nor would I ever waste time doing that. From observing others experiences of buying relationships, they’re always the one to say they’re being “used”. I was raised to earn them through a genuine open door to anyone that’s willing. Once someone turns their back on you or changes the way they treat you, you question every single thing on where you went wrong. Until you realize it wasn’t you, it was them letting other people get to their head and manipulate their mind.